End of the road
Well I think I am at the point where I am am coming to the end of the road of my eduction career. 18 years as a primary teacher, two years in post as a substantive head. Bringing the school through a tough time when the previous headteacher was suspended due to misconduct, changing the staffing profile extensively, giving the children so much in the way of experiences and memories whilst juggling the political changes. After a second RI and a very politically driven LA meeting Friday where it looked like they were setting the foundations for their case to oust me out, I am now reviewing my whole position.
I came into the job to make a difference like so many teachers. What makes me proud, is the number of ex pupils that, now grown up, have made the effort to seek me out and let me know how I helped shape their lives and influence their choices, thanking me for my contribution. The joy that brings and that can never be taken away from me.
I am proud I have stuck to my beliefs, my morals, not ‘bending’ the rules of the sats, not narrowing our broard and balanced curriculum – so many schools remove the arts to concentrate on the sats – savage for the young people. I have not bombarded the children with a diet of just maths and English – maybe that is where I have gone wrong but enabled children to shine in other area too. Children are more than just test minions. They deserve a lot more. This however is not the viewpoint of our government – just listen to our education secretary speak about young people needing just to focus on sciences and maths to be successful despite research clearly showing the opposite. Ofsted are only interested in data and that is in maths and English only – despite what we may be told.
After the recent death of one of my colleagues who was only 48 years old, I need to put life back into perspective. Being only 44 myself, I have many years ahead of me hopefully and don’t want the stress and pressure of this situation to be the thing that prevents me seeing my own children going to university and becoming self sufficient.
But where do I start? I have dedicated every hour of every day to school, working amazingly long hours both in term time and out. Education has been my life, my focus, my driver.
I refuse to end my career with LA making up a case against me, using me as a scape goat to prevent difficult questions about why their ‘support ‘ has not moved the school to good, trying to persuade governors that it would be a strategic move to move me out, trying to tell my senior leadership team how brilliant they are – which they are by the way – to emphasise more to the governors that they should act against me. There are no grounds, my governors don’t feel there are but I know the power and the threats of LA ‘if you don’t act swiftly governors then we will serve you a notice which will replace you and we will do it ourselves’ what are the governors to do?
So, what next? Where to turn? I don’t think I am deluded, I do think I have been doing a good job – maybe I am wrong and I have got myself totally wrong and the LA are right. Whatever it is I think I need to begin to find a new life, a new focus. Wave goodbye to education. Seek advice on how and where to look for a job to help pay my mortgage. A sad day.
The end of the road.
Posted on November 23, 2014, in Education, education leadership, School leadership and tagged dfe, Education, headship, headteacher, OfSTED, primary school, school. Bookmark the permalink. 23 Comments.